[ It's not a question spoken out of selfishness or need. He keeps his voice even, not demanding. He wants to make sure John is all right. He wants to make sure someone is there for John while the man does what he needs to do for his own personnel. Plain and simple. ]
Yeah. Yeah, I wouldn't have told him that yet either. One thing at a time. Just being here is a lot. Everyone I've met who's--they've known, all of them. He had no clue?
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John, what is it?
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I can't see. That's-
[He chokes on the lie. It feels wrong to keep the truth from Poe, and honestly? John doesn't know why he is.]
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[ And that's not everything, Poe can tell that's not everything. ]
I'm coming over.
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[Understatement of the century. He's good at those.]
Poe, you can't come over. One of my people showed up today, from Atlantis, and it's... complicated.
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[ Perhaps more importantly: ]
Are you?
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[He sighs. God, he's tired.]
Yeah. Yeah... No.
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[ It's not a question spoken out of selfishness or need. He keeps his voice even, not demanding. He wants to make sure John is all right. He wants to make sure someone is there for John while the man does what he needs to do for his own personnel. Plain and simple. ]
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[John rubs his eyes. Still useless. Poe will hear the creak of a bed.]
He came back, Poe. Like one of yours. But he didn't know he died.
For us, he's been gone for years.
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[ There's no point in platitudes. There's no point in saying I'm sorry.
Poe sits down on his and Finn's couch, settling in. ]
You told him?
[ It's what Poe would have done. It's what he would have felt he had to do. ]
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[John rolls onto his side, propping his phone up on the pillow.]
We lost more than him. He doesn't know that, either.
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[ TEMPORAL CONSEQUENCES BE DAMNED OR SOMETHING. ]
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[Screw time.]
I'm not losing him twice.
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Where?
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No. I mean. I'm coming back. So don't let anyone take my spot.
I'd fight them for it.
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[ There's a funny feeling in Poe's chest, something like nerves and something like happiness. ]
Right.
[ And, because it's true, because John is John and as irreplaceable as Finn or Leia: ]
There's no one who could.
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It's hard to get these few words out, but he has to say them.]
I want to see you. I really do.
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[A pause, because he's never been good at goodbyes. Not even for a little while.]
Goodnight.
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[ There are things he could add, things he could say, but they're too dangerous. Far too dangerous. ]
Just say the word.